Just wanted to say its Official...I quit

This went on a lot longer than I ever wanted or figured and even though it's personal to me, I didn't want everyone to think I never got a job again. I am back to working, but it is only part time, which is what I wanted because I am going to school. And its also probably been one of the problems I've had getting a job because my focus shifted from full time work to part time work that would work with my situation back around May. I actually work at my college. So now college is like a full time job for me. 1/2 the time Im working and half the time Im in school. It's going to be a major struggle for me and my wife to continue this way, but we have made it this far and we are only interested in making it to the other side. School has been nothing but a great experience for me and has opened up new horizons and made new friends for me. It's all part of the struggle, but its been a rewarding experience. I went 371 days without earning a paycheck. You'll discover what resources you have and a lot of other things about yourself when you go through something like this. It wasn't that I didn't have a few job opportunities, I did. I just didn't have anything that would work with my situation. And accepting other things would have taken me off the path I wanted to take. I have to say I was really depressed around March and April but once I started going to school, things immediately started becoming more positive for me.

I have some very long days during my week (especially Tuesday which is 13 hrs plus 2hrs round trip driving). So if anyone wonders why I haven't been posting as much, this is why. I'm hoping eventually I can get back to the point where I can buy some comics again and have a more valid viewpoint around here. But that's a bit much to ask right now. Got to get through Xmas and keep paying the mortgage. For now, I'll just take it one blessing at a time and hope there is a brighter future ahead of me if I just keep pursuing it.

Thanks dude. The money I'm making is peanuts. In fact it keeps us in real danger of going under. But it prolongs it a bit and keeps us in the game for just that much longer. It's better than nothing, which is what I've had for the last year.

The jobs situation for me was terrible. Either I wasn't qualified for good jobs or I was in direct competition with hundreds of others at any given time. Or I was looking at things I just didn't want. But when time is running out on you, you'll look at anything.

I even applied at the local Arby's around here. When I told my wife I did, she got pissed and told me if they called I better not take it. Well, no worries, they didn't even call. That makes you feel pretty low when even Arby's won't call.

At one point I went about 6 months without any response to anything. This is when I really got depressed. I'm serious when I say I was very depressed around spring. I had no one to blame but me. But I did it for a reason. But when you put your family in a bad situation, it doesn't make you feel very good when nothing good is coming from it.

I told myself if I do positive things, positive things will happen. I decided I needed more education and went back to school. Amazingly, when I went to school things started happening that were more positive. I've had a few job offers, but they involved me quitting school. It's hard to stay on a path like this when you have so many responsibilities. The only way I got through this is because I saved so much money the previous 11 years. But its not smart when you're spending it on bare necessities. I cant just take another similar job with similar or worse pay that leaves me feeling the same way I did before I quit. I need something more fulfilling. Life is just way too short to live unfulfilled and not chasing dreams.

The job I have now is nothing more than a means to prolong existence at least briefly. Im still in very grave and real danger. But it seems like things come up to keep you pursuing your dreams right when you need it. It's like that Rolling Stones song....

You cant always get what you want.

But if you try sometimes, you just might find....

You get what you need.

That about sums it up. I keep hoping if I keep at it, I'll get just enough, to get what I need. I have a very long ways to go. But for the time being. I'm continuing on this path and sleeping in this very uncomfortable bed I made for myself. At some point I may have to give up the ghost and go back to what I left. I dearly hope not. So for as long as I can, I'm going to keep at it this way.....

Well....this thread has went on long enough. I'm happy to finally be able to announce that I have accepted a Full Time position with another world wide company. I begin work on the 25th. I will have 7 weeks of training 5 days a week.

Some good news and bad news. Bad news, I'm not making as much as where I left. Well, I knew money wasn't making me happy when I left. I'm not making a fortune here, but I aint as bad off as a lot of other things I was looking at and considering. This is actually pretty decent.

However, the good news is once I get done with the 7 weeks training, I have secured a 4 day work week, something I've always wanted. 4 10 hr days. Plus I have shift differential for the hrs I work past 6pm. Plus plenty of overtime opportunities and last but not least, I am still able to attend college! So now I can work on 2 things at once instead of hating my life and letting 1 thing control me. My 3 days off are Fri-Sun. When it was offered at my last job, it was like split days off and it was like you had Tues, Thurs and Fri off. I've got a prime time 3 day weekend and it don't hurt me to work an extra 2 hrs a day to get another day off. I'll get used to 10 hr days. Hell, I left 11 hr days where I was and was doing that 5 days a week. Which contributed to me leaving because I was just burnt out over the BS.

Regardless, it comes at a time that still has me retaining some of my savings (I was starting to get worried). I knew entering 2010, I wouldn't be able to make it the way I was the whole year. I was thinking I was going to use up all my resources. Well, I used a lot of them up, but I still have a decent chunk left. I've been working since I was 12 yrs old. And if you count mowing lawns, I started doing that at 8. This is the longest I ever went without a job. And it really was testing me trying to stay in the game.

Its going to take awhile for me to get settled back down and where I can spend money again. But Im hoping after a few months, I'll eventually be buying comics again and getting back into that game too. So maybe this is a good day for me with Comic Crack too.

Anyway, I just want to say it's official. The ordeal is officially over. I'm finally a full time worker again.

Huzzah!